I admit I struggle with racist feelings. I’ve tried not to, but too many things keep being thrown up, and it makes it near impossible not to be a little racist.
Take for instants when I first started my business. I worked extremely hard to put a business plan together with realistic goals, and the steps needed to reach those goals over the next 5 years. I did everything that was asked by the bank I was applying for my Small Business loan with all of my ‘i’s dotted and ‘t’s crossed.
They told me everything looked great, but there was one thing I still needed to do. I needed to put everything in my wife’s name only. I couldn’t have my name on any of the legal forms or records, even though this business was my dream, and I was the one with the technical skills to do the work.
This bothered me on several fronts. First they wanted me to lie, and this goes against my core values. Second, it felt like they were trying to drive a wedge between my wife and I. That just wasn’t going to happen. We are in this marriage together, completely. There is no separation, period. Again this went against my core values.
I bring up core values, because all of this happened before I was a Christian. The banker was just trying to help us in his way. The worldly way. We were technically only changing things on paper. Bending the rules so to speak. Everyone does it, right? But does it make it right?
The point being, I was denied the loan because I was a white male, not because of my business plan. The banker told me if I put everything in my wife’s name we would have gotten the loan because it would have been for a woman. A minority, starting the business.
I’m annoyed with all of the special interest groups where whites are not allowed, like the black college fund, migrant head start programs for hispanic, and the list goes on. If anything says whites only, they are accused of evil, and racism. This bothers me in so many ways that I wasn’t able to come to grips with it until now.
If we are to truly get rid of racism, there shouldn’t be any special programs, funds or want not. The ruse of saying were are only trying to help those less fortunate does not apply. Hard times do not care what color skin is, or who your parents are. Hard times fall on whom ever it can. The devil only cares about the numbers. He wants as many people suffering as possible, and will use any means possible.
We are all in this fight together as pawns in this spiritual war. The only way we can survive is to band together, completely as one. There are only two sides to this war. You have a choice, and not choosing is not an option. You can choose the one who likes hatred, anger and negativity, or you can choose the One who loved us so much he gave His life for us. I choose my all for the One Who gave His all for everyone.